I wish to

I have alot of wish..damn alot

• i wish to have ppl pamper me when i am sad
• i wish to become pretty
  
• i wish to become attractive
• i wish to have a normal family and normal life
• i wish to become clever
  
• i wish to become famous
• i wish to have a bf who care me
• i wish to have a mother who understand me
• i wish to have friend who always standby and support me when i need them
• i wish to listen that u said I LOVE YOU to me 1 day
• i wish to have my grandmother back in my life..

i wish to have all this but i wont get it..everytime when i need ppl to listen to me...there wont have any1 willing to borrow me their ear...when i wish ppl can pamper me but there have nobody will do it becoz WHO AM I to them....i dun have my friend d..they wont choi me ady..i have nobody in life...even if i exam..i oso wont past..becoz i am stupid....WHY I ALWAYS SO NEGATIVE!! THIS IS GOOD QUESTION..BECOZ I HAVE NO REASON TO BECOME POSOTIVE...
sometime i wondering...WAT THE FUCK u born me to this world....to suffer!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY

• WHY I NEVER HAVE A FRIEND WHO CAN SUPPORT ME
• WHY I ALWAYS BE THE PERSON WHO GET HURT
• WHY I CANT BECOME LIKE OTHER PPL
• WHY I DUN HAVE A NORMAL FAMILY
• WHY I NEVER HAVE PPL LOVE ME...

YING,QUAN..both of u is my best friend...but after both of u have couple d..both of u since like forget me jor.......last time i have u guys but now....even both of u i oso lost jor..........

to some1....
recently i always mesej u...i hope u dun misunderstanding...i always treat u as an important person in my life...never change...i like cooking and i noe u oso ..maybe ..so i just like wanna exchange some experience or recipe..that all....i never mean to ................

this is the only wolrd that i have.........the world which never aburden me...never leave me...never treat me cool...

i have nobody.........