Hidup

~It seem like quite long time i didnt update my blog jor...2nite i wish to write it in bahasa rojak coz...suddenly feel like...banyak benda kena cakap

~i oso wondering actually what happening...i ady control those stupid feeling not to show out again...it seem like quite lama d i didnt show it out...i thougth after 3 week holiday..i cn let go..then haiz...seem like those thing come again..actually i oso have nth d lah...i should not think too much...later i will become crazy ppl....i suppose....like...haiz...
saya pun tak tahu apa sudah jadi...after 1 botol of whisky inside the stomach...i thought i can wake up...whose noe...more teruk...actually this is the last sem..i quite...tak sampai hati wan leave here...here got a lot of my sweet and unhappy memory...i lost many ppl at here...the most important thing...after i came here..i seem like lost my direction..i keep like imagine...if if...if my life didnt change and i still can become like last time d me...happy and no nid to bother so many thing..wah so good...but i cant change the reality...LIFe must be go on althought it sad or happy...

My mother>,<
sometime i bit jealous with other ppl life.."My mom like this,my mom like that,!"but me..i never mention my mother to my friend...this is why..becoz of her..i lost everything...especially i lost my grandma..and my childhood...
i oso wish i can like other girl...always wishing for her prince to come out...last time i so childish o...i sumtime wish...when i having problem my prince will ride a horse to save me...Wat a funny joke...wakakaka...haha..so stupid d me!...


You Had lost the person who love you-Grandma
except of her..i didnt feel that ..i am important to ppl surrounding..when she still alive..when my birthday.she sure will cook many many thing for me...she will prepare everything for me...until!!! she had gone...i thought when i have bf...at least i can get abit love from him after my grandma leave..but!!! tat years..my own birthday cake..i need to buy for myself..even...i need to wait he finish his dota..wakakakakaka dota is more important...hahaha so funny...hahaha...i so meaningless d lor...hahaha....
utnil last time...still same...how i wish my birthday never come...dont come pls..i beg u...i dunwan alone..after my bao bei grandma leave....everything mean nth to me ady...

EVERYTHING MEAN NTH WHEN THE PERSON THAT YOU LOVE..HAD LEAVE U.FAR FAR AND NEVER EVER COME BACK...